hello lulu.

nice to meet you.

 I have advanced cancer and my treatment is considered palliative so we maybe some things in common, the difference maybe being that you had the cancer to deal with 7 years ago so that must have been discouraging to learn it was back.  and the fibromyalgia surely adds another dimension to your experience. another difference might be that I haven't uprooted myself.  my family is still mostly on the other side of the mountains . . . 

I have found that the side affects of some medications are insideous and they can really throw a person off track sometimes, what with lack of energy, no appetite, depression & brain fog to name a few.  I quit taking some meds that I was pretty sure were making my head feel hollow. the doctor I see prescribed an alternative that was an improvement.

but all that aside,  there's a natural rhythm of ebb & flow in life that inluences the intensity of the roller-coaster ride.   my experience is yes, the roller coaster track gradually starts to even out.       

I can honestly say there have been days where almost all I did was weep.  I think I was grieving the life I wanted to have.   but . . .

tears can be cleansing and wash away sadness,  sometimes after a good cry a person can have a good sleep.  so I quit fighting the tears and just let them flow and it's been a while now since I needed to cry.

being uprooted is such a big change.  I think it takes a person maybe three months to adjust to big changes.  it takes time to settle.  and it sounds like you're right in the middle of the hard part.  after the hard part, you get a chance for a break. 

 so it's friday now.  thursday was a long day, I kept thinking it was friday already.

now that it is friday, I'm struggling a bit with what I thought happened on friday actually happened on thursday when I only thought it was friday but . . .

and a bla bla bla

hi to you 

lulu

my apologies for the bit above.  sonetimes I just like to play with words.

I was thinking about you.

when you made your big move, did you have to down-size?  that's a hard job if a person is  emotionally attached to things but, can be quite satisfying if a person can rid one's self of items that are nothing much more than a burden. lighten the load.